Cafe Attitude
by: Colette Calapristi Casey
© 2014
I could feel the paper in my hand fluttering from the shakes that had taken over my body. The words on the paper seemed simple enough: Jane Smith, 395-3098. A simple name. A simple phone number and today a very, very complicated situation.
I paced in my bedroom back and forth with my cell in my hand. I know I had asked for this, but now I wondered if it was just better not to know.
My mother was a saint as far as I was concerned. My whole life, she has been there for me through thick and thin. It didn’t matter what kind of crap I was pulling she was always there to guide me back on track. I remember one terrible day when I was 15, we had one of the worse fights of my life.
It started out simply. I had asked for information about my birth mother. I could see the color drain from my mother’s face. She was sitting on the couch reading the news on her computer. She slowly closed it and stood up to face me.
“I will tell you everything I know about your birth mother. What do you want to know?” My mother’s voice was kind but strained.
“Like her name, where does she live? Why did she give me up? Didn’t she care about me?” Yeah, I screamed it.
“I can’t tell you any contact information until you turn 18. That was part of the arrangement of your adoption. I can tell you that she cared very deeply for you, but was not able keep you.”
I remember the heat rise to my face and if I was a cartoon character I’m sure my eyes would have been bugging out.
“Oh dare you! I want her name and address now!”
The strain on my mother’s face tightened more if that was even possible.
“Alyssa, I wish I could tell you, but even if I gave you the information, she will not be there. She will not be there until you turn 18.”
“What the hell mom! What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
And there it was. My cussing at mom was not acceptable and she let me know it. I ended up getting grounded for over a month. Each time I opened my mouth and yelled at her, she’d tack on a day until I was up to 30 days grounded. Ok, so I’m a little slow on the uptake, but I did eventually shut up.
Now, standing here in my room with her number in my hand, these last three years seemed to have flown by.
I thought of my mother and how she had placed this paper on my nightstand the morning of my 18th birthday. That was two weeks ago. She never asked me about it and I never thanked her. I had gotten what I wanted but couldn’t bring myself to make the call, until now.
I looked at the number again, closed my eyes and tapped the numbers.
I put the phone to my ear and could hear my own breathing. It rang once, twice and a third time. On the fourth ring, she answered.
“Hello? Is this Alyssa?” Her voice was warm and rich.
My first thought is that my mother must have tipped her off.
“Ye..yes. This is Alyssa. Is this Jane? I mean Mrs. Smith? I’m sorry what can I call you?” I was stuttering like an idiot.
I heard her laugh. “You can call me whatever you like. But Jane is nice.”
Her laughter calmed my nerves and I could breathe a little easier.
“Jane, I was wondering if you would like to meet somewhere?”
Again, that creamy laughter. “Of course sweet child. Why else would you reach out to me. I think it’s time we got to know each other don’t you?”
My mind screamed, ‘yes! yes! I’ve wanted to know you ever since I learned about you!’, but I answered more reserved. “Yes, Jane. That would be very nice.”
We chatted about a place to meet, a time and what we would be wearing, but she insisted she would know me when she saw me.
The date was set for this Saturday and we would meet a popular coffee shop downtown.
The four days in-between were excruciatingly long. I felt like I had to tip-toe around my mother as I never told her about the meeting and she never asked. I was sure she knew and I was sure she had been talking to Jane.
By time Saturday had arrived, I had picked out four or five outfits, put my hair up, down, in a pony-tail or with a headband. I finally settled on a look and headed out to meet my mother.
The coffee shop was moderately full with patrons, students and housewives waiting for swim lessons at the Y to finish. It was a beautiful day outside and so I waited a few minutes to get the perfect café table facing the street.
I checked my watch and it was ten past 10. Jane was now 10 minutes late. I tried not to appear over anxious as I looked at everyone who walked by and in the shop. I don’t know why I was looking for her, I didn’t have a clue what she looked like. I told her I would be wearing Seattle Mariners jacket. What a stupid item of clothing to wear. There were at least two or three other people here with one on. But they weren’t 18 or female. I was beginning to think I was being stood up.
I took a sip of my coffee and starting checking my facebook. I scrolled through the status updates and even watched a cat video until I felt a hand on my shoulder. Then I heard the sweet, beautiful voice.
“Hello Alyssa.”
I looked up with all the excitement of a kid at Christmas, but what I saw freaked me out.
“Are…are you Jane?” I asked and I’m sure I had those bug eyes going.
“Yes I am. I’m sure you have lots of questions.”
The woman pulled out her chair and sat down beside me. She had long brown hair, blue yes, full lips, high cheekbones and was wearing a Mariners Jacket. Oh, and yeah, did I happen to mention she looked just like me? I’m not talking in a mother daughter kind of way. I’m talking like in a freaky twin sister kind of way.
I sat there stunned as she put on sunglasses as the sun came out.
“I..ahh..” yeah, smooth.
“Why don’t I start.” Jane said calmly.
I nodded my head still trying to see any wrinkles, any sign of gray hair, no droopy neck like my mom, nothing.
“Alyssa, first I have to say, you were very much loved. It was very difficult for me to give you up, but it was a matter of life or death that I do. You’re life. You needed to grow to maturity to be safe, and now that you are, we can finally meet.”
“What are you talking about? Someone wanted to hurt me? Is that why my mother wouldn’t tell me where you were until I turned 18?”
Jane smiled and took a sip of her tea.
“That’s part of it. Yes, in order for you to thrive here, you had to be adopted by a family…here. And yes, your mother knew that she could not tell you where I was until you were 18.”
“oookkkaaay, but I still don’t know why I couldn’t go with you instead of being adopted.”
Jane smiled. “Alyssa, I’m sure can see that there is something different about us, right?”
I nodded my head. You bet there’s something different.
“How old are you anyway?” It blurted out, I couldn’t help myself.
Jane laughed again. “You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.”
“Try me.” I was starting to get pissed off. This was my life and she’s answering questions with questions and laughing at everything.
She tilted her head and I felt a coolness settle over her.
“All right then Alyssa. Let me tell you, about you.”
Her words ran in circles in my head. I tried to comprehend what she was trying to tell me. Words like ‘came to this planet’ and ‘fell in love with a human’ and ‘takes 18 years to get here’ stuff like that.
I’m sure my bug eyes were out when I finally got it together to speak.
“So, you are saying, my mother is my aunt, my father is your old boyfriend who died when your people found out you were pregnant and that I’m an alien too?”
Jane laughed, but then caught herself. I think she could see I was just a tad overwhelmed.
“Yes, darling to some point. Because you are part human, you will be able to age, but just not as fast as others.”
I smirked. That didn’t sound so bad.
“You’ll also be safe. Because you are of age, my people cannot erase you as a ‘mistake.’ I loved your father so very much and after he was killed I couldn’t bear to see you harmed. So for our safety, your mother took you in and I returned to my planet.”
I could see that it was love that drove her to give me up. I wondered if I would ever possess such an unselfish and graceful quality. I realized it has always been there with me in my mom. Her patience and grace got me through the toughest times in my life and made me strong for what I would hear today.
“So what does my mom have to say about our meeting?”
Jane shrugged. “I have no idea. We’ve not spoken in nearly 18 years.”
Bug eyes. “So, how did you know if was me on the phone when I called.”
Jane smiled. “It will be your gift soon. Empathy with a touch of telepathy. You will experience an awakening of the people around you and feel a connectedness like never before. You and I will be able to communicate freely if you so desire and you will learn what drives the humans. This includes your mother who of course is driven by great love.”
All of my confusion, anger and attitude seemed to slip away the longer Jane and I spoke. The more I got to know her, the more I loved my mother. Isn’t funny how a total stranger could show me how much I am loved.
We talked for another hour until Jane touched her watch. It was time for her to go. And when I say go, I mean, not down the street.
“Blessings upon you Alyssa and you and I shall be together in the energy soon.”
Jane walked up to me and gave me an amazing hug, one like I’ve never felt before.
I watched her walk away and then I picked up my cell and called my mother.